Just
typing that is surreal.
Nathan’s
job wasn’t going well. He started a job search a while back that led him out of
state. He got several offers (because he is awesome at his job) and then he got
a really good offer. And we are moving.
To say
we’re not super excited about this is an understatement. We wanted to stay. We
grew up here. We love our house that we’ve only been in a little over a year.
We wanted to raise our son here. Our families and friends are here and we are
very content with the familiarity of this place. This is home.
The immediate
challenges this poses are a little overwhelming. We have to repaint our kitchen
and keep Andrew from destroying the walls with food. Well-timed sippy cup drops
are brutal! Then we have to put our beautiful home on the market and pray it
sells quickly. Nathan needs a place to stay near his new job. We’ll be apart
until our house sells. We need to buy a new house in an area where we are already
finding school districts to be difficult.
I need to
quit my job. I love my job so much. It makes me sad. :( On a happy note, I
get to stay there till the house sells. (Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU,
grandparents!!) I will not look for another job in Illinois. I’ll get to be a
stay-at-home mom after all. I hope to get back into a library in the years
ahead, when daycare won’t be so necessary.
There are
positives. The final sale of this house will be one of them, as it will lift a
huge financial burden. We both think the new job will relieve some of the
stress we’ve experienced as a family. I’ll get to decorate a home without the
threat of a move hanging over it. I have no idea what God has planned for us in
Illinois, but this good job for Nathan is already a blessing.
It’s just
going to be hard to leave this place. It is home in a way that feels woven into
the very fiber of my being. That sounds intense, but it’s true.
Matthew 6:25-27
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
